I was feeling uninspired a few days ago. Kind of blah.
I really don’t like that feeling.
As I usually do on these situations, I dug into my journals.
Putting out random thoughts always shape up in something bigger and better.
So it came to me that a month ago or so I was feeling very fulfilled, wholesome.
Then I remembered what my routine was.
Actually, not necessarily a routine rather a very important task of the day:
AHA! yeah, I should go back into it.
It really shifts me. It gives me a new pair of eyes. I can see and be aware of things that I wouldn’t otherwise.
And the importance of things shift as well.
So, off I went to do some stillness.
I quickly remembered that finding something that works is usually the challenge.
I have been always effective by simply sitting, breathing in and out and feeling the air going through my nose. After that, my mind quiets a little, I then focus on my forehead (third eye chakra) and then up to the top of head (crown chakra).
Great! Let’s do it!
Well, the struggle of getting back into it was to actually get to that first state of concentration (the nose). I know once I am there, quiet and focused on my nose I can redirect all the focus upwards.
But this time it wasn’t happening.
I tried many different things to get that first step and my mind couldn’t settle at all.
“I think this chair makes me uncomfortable”
*Move to another chair*.
“mmmm. It seems dark in here. I close my eyes and I feel that the room is dark”
*Go to another room*
“not working either….Maybe an incense will help me set the mood”
*Lit an incense*
“……..I think sitting on the floor will do the final touch”
*Sit on the floor in lotus position*
“Ouch!!!! my back!!!! what am I thinking?”
*Jump back to the original chair*
So there I was.
Somehow a tad of concentration came after all the efforts. I barely made it to the top of my head and decided to call it a day.
Sometimes the activities we put ourselves to do are not perfect so it was all good and I let it be.
Later on that day, late afternoon when it was just slightly getting dark, it started raining.
I LOVE rain!
Such a long time I didn’t have the chance to enjoy rain, pure and simple!
Off the door I went.
There it was! THAT is what was missing!
Connection with nature. The oh-so-crucial nature all around me.
It was a gorgeous experience!
In the oddest position ever – standing up – I found what I was looking for.
I closed my eyes and just let the rain, the wind, the chillness of it all wrap around me.
I just listened and felt.
Breathing in and out, the smell of wet soil, the smell of rain, were intoxicating.
It was chill. The wind blowing gave me goosebumps.
I do not like feeling even a slight of cold. I rather melt in heat then feel a tad cold.
And yet, it was chill, I was barefoot. The soil was wet. It was windy and the rain was cold.
And yet, I was so comfortable. I was so hugged. I was so connected. I was back.
When I opened my eyes, the usual wonderland was awaiting.
Everything looked different.
Everything was richer. Greens and browns were wet and richer.
That were sparkles reflecting everywhere in the yard. It was comfortable, cozy, chill and warm at the same time. It was homy.
I didn’t want to move. I didn’t want that feeling to go away.
So I stayed there staring and feeling.
I then realized that my cats joined me in my little adventure. 😀
They were just there sitting and contemplating too.
I felt so blessed. Wonders are all around.
Things are beautiful, right now, everywhere.
I feel so thankful to see and experience all those wonders again.